Hello
everyone!
Today is
day 7 in self isolation. I honestly feel that the most struggling thing I have
had to deal with is the uncertainty of where the money is going to come from.
Even though I’ve applied for EI, the page that I keep going to gives an error
now and so I can’t see my status. I also know that the government, from what I
understand are reviewing and switching most new applicants or pending, to a new
Canadian Emergency Relief Benefit (CERB) and that we will be getting $2000 each
month for four months. But when is that going to arrive? I know that the ideal
is in the beginning of April and at the latest is April 20th
supposedly but I am still anxious as I have rent and bills to pay and that’s on
the forefront of my mind. Once I have that I will be settled and be ok.
I, like many,
are struggling in these hard times of uncertainty and I know that unlike our
southern neighbours in the US, we have some kind of help and confirmed Federal
assistance packages. Here in North America it seems that it is the epicenter of
the virus and that it’s spreading more like wildfire since they are larger and
more populous cities with little space and don’t have the federal and sometimes
the state support they need to make it through. Most in the states seem not to
have any health coverage and there are reports now of people being turned away
because they don’t have insurance. This should not be! I feel for anyone who is
at a loss right now as to what to do and for the first time the US is
considering militarizing the boarder whereas our Prime Minister believes and is
saying this will not be allowed to happen. It’s frightening times and I can imagine many
being terrified of what’s coming next.
Makes me appreciative of the Country I do live in.
There are
reports of more deaths and more cases every day which is alarming. We now have
a mandatory lock down of those returning from out of country to stay home for
at least 14 days and if showing symptoms to report and stay home longer if it’s
mild and to go to hospital if required. We have continuous videos of sufferers
now around the world and reporting and saying “This is what it feels like” and
crying and scared and alone. This is not a joke people! People are still
disregarding the government and now parks and play areas are now closed and we
have Police roaming the streets. In my city alone there is now a hotline to
report businesses and people who are not complying. I have someone I know who
posts random rants on facebook also that comments about neighbours etc. and I
really don’t want to be calling people out but yes they should stay home but
please be kind with your words. Also our
essential services list, yes some of the shops perhaps should be closed and I
think things such as half the telecommunications should be ,such as call
centers , or they should be forced and made to be work from home. There is no
need to be calling about a hardware upgrade right now or ranting and yelling at
someone for the sake of doing so because you literally have nothing better to
do with your time over a $5 charge or even a couple cents. Look we get it; you’re
stressed, angry, struggling and financially afraid. But they’re not going to
shut off your services , if you’re late you’re late and I’m sure they’ll look
back and give you waiving of late fees or even be gracious enough if you’re
nice to help you out. You’re also not or shouldn’t be threatened to lose your
home or apartment. Banks, Rental Managers and Landlords should be assisting and
if they’re threatening you or otherwise it’s against the law right now. But please be nice to essential workers who want
to be safe and home with their families like you are right now. There is also the argument that places like
Dollarama and LCBO are not necessary because they sell what most of us consider
unnecessary items but Dollarama is like a poor person’s shop for food and
supplies and LCBO is an alcoholic’s source of sanity and calm as addictions
themselves are serious and should not be taken lightly. They need help and if
you cut cold turkey you are giving a shock to your body that might land you in
the hospital and for some death. I don’t feel these stores are not essential.
There is a
person I know of that at my workplace that did not comply with the mandatory
lock down putting everyone at risk. I want you to know that I may not call this
person out directly, or the company for that matter, but I hope that my company
and those who work there will follow
protocol and help by staying home , refuse to work because it’s unsafe right
now until they get work from home ability. I feel for my senior aged and immune
compromised colleagues who have also chosen to go back to work in an environment
so unhealthy right now in fear of losing their jobs, of losing money, of not
surviving if they don’t work.
We have
gotten into this habit of work, work, working and that we don’t know what to do
with ourselves when we can’t and don’t. I mentioned years ago when I started
this blog that I foresaw it, that I also wished that we could go back to a
stiller time. And now it’s here. Mother Nature
has said she needs to heal and so do we. We are not listening and I also said
that we were a virus. I know people will give me rap for saying it but yes we
are. We are to ourselves and Mother Nature. We don’t heed her warnings and rest
and we consume and consume without giving anything back so it is without a
doubt repercussions of what we were already doing. I just hoped that I would
not see it in my time come down to this.
Soon if we
do not listen we will have marshal law. There are more and more people I come
across saying “It won’t and hasn’t affected me “or “I have a great immune
system and have survived death before” well we’re slowly learning that it doesn’t
have to show symptoms to even be a carrier. Do we want marshal law? Do we want complete
military control? They’re already positioning for prep for this. It’s literally
my nightmares coming true.
On a more
positive note, I’ve come across many things people are doing creatively to keep
occupied and many people coming together online with groups and games through
video chats etc. I myself enjoy word games along with my family and sometimes
my sister and I watch a movie together at the same time to give each other some
closeness. I also call my parents regularly. You don’t have to be totally alone and it is
best for your mental health to communicate even if it’s once every few days
with someone so that you’re not totally isolated. Keep a routine as well. I try to get up around
the same time each morning and go to bed at the same time I used to just to
have consistency. I am also taking more time to do some creative items and
spending time with my kitties that are totally down for a good snuggle and a
nap. Do as kitties do! Clean often, nap and enjoy as many sunbeams as you can
and spend it with loved ones all while social distancing.
Please I
beg you to all stay safe and stay home. We need this. The earth needs this. We
need an entire reset but we can only do this if we don’t go back to our old
ways. We have to learn to be and know
that work and material things are not all there is to life. Get back in touch
with yourselves, your inner self, your family, Mother Nature, God? Whatever it
is you believe in, we need this time to heal.
Take care, friends!
I’ll continue to check in with you with further updates. And remember if you’re
feeling down or alone, you’re not. We’re all in this together and there is
hope!
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