Friday, January 16, 2015

Ongoing Anxiety

Today, I stayed home. I battled with myself over the decision and part of it was because I've missed so much already in one month due to a chest infection that I really didn't want to however I have to take care of myself. My stomach and body just hurt and hurt so much I didn't sleep well last night. Here's hoping for a better sleep tonight. 

Part of the reason why I have had little sleep is that my brain would not shut off, the pain and then my restless leg syndrome. I couldn't get comfortable or fully sleep until I took an ibuprofen and turned some music on and focused in on that for a while with a heating pad on my belly. Now why can't my brain shut off you ask? Because of anxiety. It's constant worry about a multitude of things such as family, money, job, projects, errands, bills. It can become very overwhelming and then there is my self confidence and esteem issues. It seems like a wave where it comes over you and you feel like you're drowning and can't get on top of it. It just pulls you under. Sometimes it lasts for a few moments and other times it can put you into a depression even lasting a day or more. 

One of my goals this year is to try not to have the anxiety overwhelm me. I was doing well when I had my massage therapy and I may go back very soon in February actually. But in the meantime I have to find another way to combat it, aside from trying positive thinking. I've done a little bit of digging on the internet and found a few things. One site suggests the following tips :

"When you're feeling anxious or stressed, these strategies will help you cope:
  • Take a time-out. Practice yoga, listen to music, meditate, get a massage, or learn relaxation techniques. Stepping back from the problem helps clear your head.
  • Eat well-balanced meals. Do not skip any meals. Do keep healthful, energy-boosting snacks on hand.
  • Limit alcohol and caffeine, which can aggravate anxiety and trigger panic attacks.
  • Get enough sleep. When stressed, your body needs additional sleep and rest.
  • Exercise daily to help you feel good and maintain your health. Check out the fitness tips below.
  • Take deep breaths. Inhale and exhale slowly.
  • Count to 10 slowly. Repeat, and count to 20 if necessary.
  • Do your best. Instead of aiming for perfection, which isn't possible, be proud of however close you get.
  • Accept that you cannot control everything. Put your stress in perspective: Is it really as bad as you think?
  • Welcome humor. A good laugh goes a long way.
  • Maintain a positive attitude. Make an effort to replace negative thoughts with positive ones.
  • Get involved. Volunteer or find another way to be active in your community, which creates a support network and gives you a break from everyday stress.
  • Learn what triggers your anxiety. Is it work, family, school, or something else you can identify? Write in a journal when you’re feeling stressed or anxious, and look for a pattern.
  • Talk to someone. Tell friends and family you’re feeling overwhelmed, and let them know how they can help you. Talk to a physician or therapist for professional help.

Fitness Tips: Stay Healthy, Manage Stress

For the biggest benefits of exercise, try to include at least 2½ hours of moderate-intensity physical activity (e.g. brisk walking) each week, 1¼ hours of a vigorous-intensity activity (such as jogging or swimming laps), or a combination of the two.
  • 5 X 30: Jog, walk, bike, or dance three to five times a week for 30 minutes.
  • Set small daily goals and aim for daily consistency rather than perfect workouts. It's better to walk every day for 15-20 minutes than to wait until the weekend for a three-hour fitness marathon. Lots of scientific data suggests that frequency is most important.  
  • Find forms of exercise that are fun or enjoyable. Extroverted people often like classes and group activities. People who are more introverted often prefer solo pursuits.
  • Distract yourself with an iPod or other portable media player to download audiobooks, podcasts, or music. Many people find it’s more fun to exercise while listening to something they enjoy.
  • Recruit an “exercise buddy.” It's often easier to stick to your exercise routine when you have to stay committed to a friend, partner, or colleague. 
  • Be patient when you start a new exercise program. Most sedentary people require about four to eight weeks to feel coordinated and sufficiently in shape so that exercise feels easier."
I will quite likely try to take a lot of this into consideration because I haven't done my exercises lately over a few months and have found that walking helps with tunes but also the lack of doing anything else seems to be getting to me in my back and shoulders again. 

Also drinking pop or anything with larger caffeine and sugar amounts seem to affect me and I have more issues sleeping or with my heart racing than when I drink just juice or water. 

My father sent me a link on facebook also to a report that you may have seen about the internet; it's about aspartame poisoning, and how many people who drink diet anything seem to have more issues with ms, lupus , fibromyalgia etc. making this and obesity an epidemic. The reason why I bring this up is that some of my symptoms seem to be similar with anxiety and could be associated with aspartame. I'm pretty sure the crystal light or those type of things have that in it. So I'm going to have to find an alternative especially at work where the air is so super dry and I'm talking all day. 

Anyway there you have it for the end of the month entry. This is going to be a long journey I'm sure. Now I bid everyone good night as I must go to work tomorrow and I need more rest.  :)

Thursday, January 1, 2015

2015 - New Goals

Well it's been quite a while since I have posted. Sorry for that, I was out of commission for a while from about September through to December, the computer died. Now that I'm back up and running I can begin to write again though perhaps not as frequently. I'll try. I've also been very busy with crocheting items.

This article here about health benefits of knitting/crocheting is a very good article that I think people should read. I've certainly found that it makes me happier and less stressed to do crochet and I have less anxiety. Even when I've done so on the phones I just seem to be better. However this does not help my body fight off colds and flus it seems.

I've been fighting this one off for just over a month on and off, finally took medicine thinking it would be ok and then boom! I now have a full blown sinus/chest infection that I'm fighting and can't sleep and let me tell you it's kicking my butt. It's the first of the year and I already took a day off of being at work and I really didn't want to. I might have to do so tomorrow too but we shall see.

They really have to put in a law that says that if you're sick then you should stay home and the company should pay for every doctor's note that has to be written for missing work for these things. There are people with pneumonia coming to work for goodness sakes and they shouldn't have to. We should be staying home with bedrest. I realize that we're missing work and we're being penalized by losing money but don't penalize us further by threatening our jobs and saying "you'll be fired if you don't come in" even when sick and throwing up! Even a doctor's note is worthless in some cases because you're not seen as being ill by the time you deliver it.

Anyway this year I'm hoping things will be better. I've noticed a difference while drinking teas, eating healthier and doing crochet. I have lost a bit of weight, I've been less stressed or having less anxiety attacks and seem happier. My goal is to continue and perhaps make a business out of my crochet items. Some of it sold and I already have orders placed, I just need the yarn for it. I have a lot of yarn already though to get me started! I'm hoping that I can do this on the side.

Other resolutions are : to write more frequently, to work out a bit more , to eat healthier and stay as fit as my body will allow, not miss work so much, to travel and to cook more. I also want to create more works of art, be it made of yarn or otherwise. Spending time with family and friends is hard but staying in touch is important so that's yet one other resolution at the top of my list.

I've come to the realization that I need to keep in touch with people because there are those that just drift off, some for reason, some for not. There have been a few that I know have mental troubles or home troubles that I would like not to lose and recent events of losing an old friend, she sadly took her own life, have made me think about things and life a little more closely. We take so much for granted.

Well everyone that's all for now. Here's to a happy 2015 and that we all can do our resolutions and most importantly make a better place to live and be healthy! :)