Ok so last week I talked about stress, job and ergonomic components. I also mentioned previously that this blog is also intended to be a motivator for myself not just others to stay active and healthy in many different ways. So this week, I'm going to talk a little bit more about my goals, especially since we're coming on the closing of yet another year in a few months and New Years, though far away as it may seem, is creeping up on us fast! My question here is, how many of us encounter the holiday rut? How many of us make resolutions that again are unreasonable or even just don't bother to do because we conveniently "forget"? I can tell you that I am among you that do this and do it frequently! It does't matter whether it's healthy eating, being more active, going somewhere or making the goal to create something, I've become, in essence, a master procrastinator!
I am also haunted by those negative feelings of self doubt and overall low self esteem. I admittedly, fear, doing these things and sometimes I need a booster or just a friend or family member telling me, "you can do it!". I was recently reading an article that is from Writer's Digest, it was on their site, and a blog entry from an author, who described self doubt as a form of monster or gremlin that needed to be banished when it comes to writing or the creative process. But this doesn't just apply to writing, it applies to any process including staying healthy in any form.
Staying healthy also doesn't just consist of better eating habits and regular exercise, but exercising our brains and our creativity and keeping ourselves happy. This blog isn't just about physical health but our overall well-being when it comes to emotions and mental stimulus. Emotions, especially when it's been drilled into our heads that we should feel like crap about ourselves by other people, take a lot to overcome. It takes a lot to overcome that voice in the back of our heads repeating to us that we're no good, we're crap, that we can't do it or that we're incompetent, or stupid. Sometimes we might even find ourselves saying "no I can't fit into that and I never will" and so we binge eat or don't eat, or even find ourselves saying we're no good for that relationship so why even bother?
I'm no health professional, so I can't say what works for everyone, but I can say what works for me and I can post it here for you to try or relate to. It's my story of a journey of wellness in many aspects of life. I need it and I need to make some new goals. Goals also will change over time because we also have a horrible habit, as humans, to put unattainable or unreasonable goals ahead of us. However, this week, I am setting some long term goals that I think will be reachable for myself with obtainable baby steps.
I know that thus far my working environment is now at such a negative and critical point that I soon need out and my intention or goal for the new year is to get a new job. That is goal 1. Goal 2, is to be more creative of which I'm already on this journey by creating and designing my Halloween costume which is a Steam-punk design that I've been wanting to do forever! I got myself a sewing machine and I have my awesome friend and step-mom Rachel to help me with the project which right there gives me even more of a boost of confidence as I don't feel I can't achieve my design and can truly make it ...alive!!!
The next goals are of course a little more difficult I think, as I want to lose weight and not be ill ALL the time! People have noticed this since I was a child that I'm just sick! So step one in this goal is to start eating a bit better (and taking vitamins!) , though this Thanksgiving weekend I didn't so much haha! I will be aiming to work that off though with walking, more working out and attempting to schedule that in the mornings rather than just light evening workouts on a more regular basis. As I said though, I keep putting it off. So I have to find some kind of motivator and track it as Dr. Oz recommends, as to how I feel when I do, and to get up in the morning before work. I just feel so tired when I go to get up at 7:20 am and I don't want to move. I look at the clock and say to myself "just ten more minutes please!!" and smack the alarm to snooze. But the longer I sleep I have noticed more of tension headaches/migraines as I don't eat breakfast at the same time on my days off. This I might add can contribute to headaches and not meeting those goals of losing weight for anyone is routine and the breaking of.
The next thing is of course the big one, be even more positive. I try to hear my niece in my head saying "come on Auntie ! You can do it!! You're ok!" and seeing her smile at me cheering me on instead of those horrible voices of negative people all my life telling me those negative and cruel things. I've worked very hard to get where I am, to have a job, roof over my head, pay my own bills. And yes I had help; there is no shame in that either! We all need a little push here and there to get where we're going. But I know that I can be more successful, and happier, just knowing that I have helped someone else, done my part and my job and have accomplished something, even if it is that small baby step in the right direction to make life a better place.
Something else I'd like to mention to us ladies especially!! Something we massively don't notice but has been somewhat touched upon , especially in my previous journals regarding media, is that we don't take time for ourselves. And this is what this is all about as well. As women I find it's expected that we take care of everything and put everyone else before us. I do it all the time even though I'm not a mom or don't have a husband. I do have family and I do have my kitties and friends and I allow myself to get walked on here and there if not quite a lot of the time or just simply put everyone else first because I care. It's a psychological thing drilled into me by 1. negative people and 2. the surrounding influences by media stating that it's my duty as a woman to do so, from birth this is drilled in. Now I can imagine guys have somewhat the same pressure but not nearly as much so and in a different way but it's more expected that guys are going to go out and do whatever and for whoever and they can do what they want. Well this is for me, this is what I want, I want to chill out and do ME time!
So alas, this is the last thing I have this week, do things for yourself, even if it's just a relaxing nap or face mask, a hot bath, read a book, take a walk, do your favorite dance or exercise, do your favorite hobby and create! Create something beautiful and share it with others. We only have one life and we should be living it! Make reasonable goals and get help where and when needed! Until next week everyone!!!
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